Lots of Thoughts - Part1

To say I have been neglecting my blog is an understatement....I have had A LOT to reflect on the past several months. I tend to over think everything....Which is why I have taken my time in writing. I came across this picture recently, and it touched me deeply. It hit home on the very reason I changed a lot about my life , and the people that I chose to surround me:

You see, when you help someone in need who is hurting - It is so very wrong to bash them publicly, to kick them when they are down. Anger and Bitterness can surely cause such an ugly and detrimental path of destruction. I can spend my whole blog entry spewing nasty blows against those who have hurt me. One person's Lie caused so many horrible and unforgivable chain reactions. I made the huge mistake of trusting her and letting her back into my life . I was vulnerable, and just found out I had Cancer. Even when very sick , and not knowing if I could be cured - this person lied about me, pretended to be my friend, and lied to people I thought were genuine. And in turn, those people believed her lies, and turned away. They kicked me when I was down. They knew I was hurting and abandoned our friendship, and chose to say hurtful things. Some even mocked my pain and said some of the most horrible things ever. They still are doing it 5 months later.  BUT, through all of this , I remained silent. I could not sink to that level of anger and ugliness. I really want to thank the very person who started this. Just when I thought life couldn't get worse , it did....for a small period of time. But every hurricane must cease. and the skies clear. I found myself. I saw what (and who) was around me and all of a sudden, this dark fog lifted. The clouds parted  and the sunshine came out. The birds began to sing the loveliest melodies. I may have ended a couple friendships, but it was for the BEST. I want those surrounding me to want to be there. You shouldn't have to beg people to be a part of your life , they should want to be there. I am so very happy now. I have a small circle of friends who have been there for me and lifted me up through this. Life is too short to hang on to things that drag us down. I decide to be happy and handle it with grace and class . I want to forgive them, and I want to move forward.

You didn't think I was going to make my blog about negative things the whole page, did you? So many amazing things happening for the Garvin family. I was going to make my blog private...but I am not going to let others change me in sharing my story. So, If you hate me that much and still want to creep on my life - have at it!

So, we had to leave our house that we were renting. My dear husband and I were thinking "Let's Buy a House" We were aligned with an amazing realtor and mortgage loan guy....It was a very nerve wracking couple of months, but we did it! They even came to me because I wasn't feeling well to sign the closing paperwork! We found a charming 4 bedroom home with a huge fenced in back yard perfect for our little family. It has a big swing set. When Olivia first saw it she just kept saying "I have my own Playground" ! She is so happy. To see how happy my babies and husband are is the greatest gift. We have a HOME. It is Ours . And it feels so right!

We have a pet Chipmunk here too!!

Sweet Bathroom!

Back Yard / Patio area

I have the most gorgeous lilacs

Purple too!

Loves her Playground!! Were fixing it up too!

Looking at the deer!!

I decided to take some photography classes and buy a pro camera, and follow my dreams of becoming a photographer. I am still taking some classes and need a lot of practice. I have 2 little ladies who are awesome and I am practicing with them first. It will take a few years, But I hope to  start a business and make it a career when I am healthy. Here are a few pictures .....Copyrighted and please give credit if you share....

Sneek Peek...Olivias 3 year session