My Biggest Battle....

Well, my results came in. As crazy as it sounds, a small part of me knew I had cancer. I hoped and prayed my instincts were wrong, but on March 13, 2014 at 4:02 pm I received the call. Dr Eyman, my surgeon, seemed very upset and told me he was so very sorry he had to do it over the phone. He was sincere, I heard the sadness in his voice. He told me I had Breast cancer and cancer in my lymph nodes, and would be receiving a call from Dr. Shenk at the UH Seidman Cancer Center.  I was crying. Brian looked at me and I silently mouthed to him  "I have cancer" . He just looked blank.  Shocked.  I was a wreck.  I had to keep telling myself over and over "I have cancer, I have cancer".  It had to sink in and I had to realize that this was not some disgusting nightmare, it was now my reality. I cannot tell you how many times I cried in the past almost 2 weeks. 

I met the Doctors this past week. Dr. Shenk is the captain of the team. Dr. Silverman is my Oncologist.       Dr. Duchon is my high risk ob. I call them the dream team. They are the best of the best. People travel from other states and countries to be treated by them. I feel blessed, and I trust them. God has brought me to these individuals for a reason. These are the people I will thank for saving my life in several months. 

I announced my condition on Facebook. Mainly because I do not want cancer talk to consume my life. I want as much normalcy as possible. I need some space, it is so hard to get call after call and have to explain a million details over and over. It is draining, and I need to save my energy to fight this !

Here is my Facebook Post:

March 22

Everyone has their battles....Mine has just begun. On March 13, 2014 I received the news that at 7 months pregnant, I have Breast Cancer, as well as cancer in my lymph nodes. This has been extremely difficult. If I could ask one thing, please keep Me, Brian, Olivia, and our unborn baby in your prayers daily. I will start Chemotherapy on Friday March 28th. I know everyone has concerns, I would ask if you could please please respect our privacy during this very difficult time. My main focus is on my family, my health, to have a healthy baby, and kick this cancer's ass. I will update on my blog, and post a link on here weekly. Please do not take it personal if I do not respond to you. As I said, this is the biggest, most emotional battle of my life. I believe in miracles, I believe in God, and I have faith that I will get through this and grow old with Brian, and watch my baby girls grow up and have families of their own. I love you all , and Thank you for supporting me.

Chemotherapy. 2 days.....In 2 days I will have chemo. It is scary being pregnant and knowing that they will be pumping my body with chemicals that will help me and hurt me. I am trying to stay positive, because that is what will get me through. They are confident baby will be fine - and that comes first in my book !

I did something today that I never thought I would be doing at 34 years young, let alone pregnant.. I received a sacrament called  "Anointing of the sick"  Now being raised catholic, must of us who learned about this back in the 80's and earlier referred to it as the last rite . Sounds Scary huh? But My parents pastor, Father Brown, calmly explained to me that it is just for those dealing with health issues or even surgery. It can be given multiple times - I will be seeing him again before my surgery, I thought to myself......

It was very quick , and peaceful. I actually feel more calm. I even had him bless the baby, because she is fighting this battle with me.

If you I reading this, PLEASE take one moment out of your day to pray for me. Pray for a healing, a miracle, for strength. Pray for my sweet unborn baby. Pray for my husband and little Olivia. Pray for my family. 

We Thank You, and God Bless.